HATSUNE MIKU!!!!

I've been rather fascinated by Hatsune Miku (character from artificial voice program Vocaloid. Look it up in google or something...). Bought 3 figurines related to Miku in the past week xD (and a huge sticker sheet I don't dare to use...)....all of them look damn nice hehe :P. Wanna buy some of the higher quality figurines but all of them are sold out....the pre-order for the ones coming out in a few months are also sold out......

The Cosfest after-effect.

This entry is extremely late. Normally I wouldn't write about some feeling that I don't have anymore, but I guess this is special. The nite after returning from Cosfest, I felt really emo. I felt empty, like an important part of myself have disappeared. Admitedly, Cosfest was one of the happiest event of my life, and I felt so much alive during those two days. I felt I belonged there, and I wanted to stay there, in that little world where anime comes to life, and there where people who are similar to me. But it ended. Well, not forever, because there's another Cosfest next year, but still, I felt sad. The sensation resembled the one I had when I ended my relationship. That feeling that something was ripped away from me. But then, the fact that I will be going for next year's Cosfest made me excited, and I guess that was what stopped my emoing. I researched quite a bit on Ulquiorra and cosplaying as him, and it turned out to be pretty difficult and costly if it were to be nicely done (which it will!!!). I even need to do a bit of make-up and stuffs. And the mask turned out to be really difficult to make and expensive to buy. But for the sake of cosplaying, I will try my best!! And I hope people from sg cosplay club will be nice and help me out a little bit on this.... Speaking of which, I haven't got a reply from them. I decided to take up a manga-drawing workshop after looking at its brochure again too. Emailed them to ask about the details of the workshop (time, place, etc). I really really hope it won't clash with my schedule *pray*. Oh, I bought a figma figurine today too xD. Guess I'm getting a bit obsessed with Hatsune Miku xD, that outfit is simply too awesome lol. Anyway, I bought a Hatsune Miku figurine, which turned out to be a figurine of another character cosplaying as Hatsune Miku (WTF?). But I don't regret or feel disappointed at all, because it looks really cute. Heh, I'll buy the real Hatsune Miku figurine next xD. Man this burn another hole in my wallett....and I want to buy the Hatsune Miku plush toy.....and the chibi figurine too.....expensive hobby.....

I went out today so I didn't eat in dining hall....sigh I'm missing her again.....

Cosfest!!!

The funnest event of the year. I repeat, it was THE FUNNEST EVENT OF THE YEAR. I felt so freaking alive..... Probably because it was my first time being at a cosplay event too. The atmosphere was really enjoyable :). Friends meeting each others. Cosplayers posing for loads of people to take picture. Pretty girls. Ah...... I think I took a total of nearly 500 photos over the two days, more than half on the second day because the main cosplaying event was on the second while the first day was focused on the anime karaoke. I didn't like the first prize winner for the anime karaoke competition though. The runner-up just appealed to me more somehow. Luckly I told Faye about the event right the day before. She was just about as enthusiastic as I was xD, while all the RI guys here are like, bleh =.=". Asked Muzhi to come too, but she said she had PW. Too bad for her. I wanted to ask ******** too, but she's always busy I guess, and I don't think she's that interested in cosplay. I'm seriously thinking of cosplaying next year. After giving it some thought, I think I'll cosplay as Ulquiorra. I'm pretty skinny, so my figure should be similar to his. I thought of Elric Edward and Uchiha Itachi too, but Itachi's been cosplayed as over again and again. I think I saw at least 3 Itachis at Cosfest. And about Edward, I guess I would need to be a little more chubby, which doesn't seem very feasible... Well, Ulquiorra's still the best choice haha, since his personality is quite similar to mine as well, so I won't really have problems acting emo. I don't have any parts of his costume (while I have most of the other two's xD), so I think I'll need to buy (or make) it from scratch. I just joined sg cosplay today. I hope to be able to get a tip or two from them, and maybe meet a lot of people and make new friends (pretty cosplay girls!!!). I definitely won't be trying to make the zanpakuto on my own though, flimsy plastic makeshift katanas are disgraceful..... I took quite a lot of pictures of pretty and sexy cosplay girls xD. The two wearing the zomgwtfbbqhelicopter so-sexy-you-can-see-the-panties were really hypnotizing. I still liked the one wearing the Chinese martial art costume more though. She's not sexy at all, but her beauty was really serene and mesmerizing. No wonder I noticed her right on the first day even though she was not cosplaying haha. Come to think of it, I think Cosfest is the first time in all my life I've ever seen panties while it's on a girl's body *heavy blushing*. I've seen loads of them in mangas and movies but they didn't seem really that special. Seeing them in real life can actually make one drool though. Not that I did drool or anything. Somehow I couldn't get that image off my mind......panties....... Hope I won't turn into a pervert or something -_-|||. I just realised that somehow panties are a hell lot sexier than bikinis, even though the amount of skin they reveal are roughly the same. Must have been because panties are supposedly forbidden to see. Psychological effects really are powerful.

I saw her again today during dinner (yay ^^). She tied her up. She looks so cute when she ties her hair up. I miss her.

Sleeplessness

Didn't sleep at all yesterday. Well, almost. Mrs Nathan said I got scary bloodshot eyes. Didn't really feel anything cos I was way too sleepy. Gonna sleep soon....gotta stay awake tomorrow cos it's COSFEST!!! I went around buying some stuffs today. Bought a Naruto ninja headband, the Itachi one (konoha crest with a slash). Finally got to buy it, they probably restocked it recently, and will have to restock again soon, since the thing is so popular haha. Renewed my Otaku House membership and got a new card. I also went to Ceasar. It's probably the first time I was disappointed visiting the store. The wooden Tensa Zangetsu I wanted to buy doesn't have a saya (sheath). I'm probably buying Sasuke's kusanagi (which is a shikomizue instead of a katana, interested and bored people do your own research with google). Don't really know what was going on in my mind today, but I recall ordering FMA Edward Elric's costume (shirt, pants, long coat). I'm probably buying the state alchemist watch too :P. I just saw another photo of her earlier. She's so pretty.....sigh. I'm feeling sad again....

Thursday

Some papers from term 2 have been returned today. Got 9/15 for Geog. Heh, Geo's determined to be the subject that's not gonna be factored in my GPA calculation, so I don't really give a damn. 25/30 chem. Not bad, but not good enough either. That failed OBA really punched a hole in my Chem GPA. I think I'll need something close to a full mark if I want to pull it to as high as 4.0 ....

Came down to dining quite late today (around 6pm+). Didn't see her. Sigh, she must have gone back before I went down. Missing her terribly :(

Just another day

She went out today so I only saw her during dinner..... I failed to say hi yet again....such a simple thing...

Saw some photos of my seniors' outing on facebook. They went to all the places i always wanted to go to with friends...I feel sort of jealous and a bit left out. Kinda funny that I feel left actually, I was never in that group to start with, and it was meant to be an after-CT outing anyway, so it would be weird if i said I wanted to go with them. But still, I wish I had gone with them. This bad habit of being jealous with everyone over everything will never go away it seems. Or maybe I just feel lonely always doing stuffs by myself.

'Yo'ed Muzhi in dining hall. That 'yo' is hilarious haha.

I still have some homework remaining and I should be able to finish all of them before midnight. Somehow I still haven't got the timetable. Gotta ask someone fast.

I miss her. A lot. Again. If only I had the courage to pick up the phone and send her and sms or something. I don't think I can do it though. Not in a long time, at least.

I miss her :( :(

Sunday.

We were officially free to go out of boarding today. went to J8 at 10am to arcade (hehe). I realised after more than one week of not playing my skills deteriorated a bit...damn..... Went to World Cyber Games Asia Championship with 2 of my juniors today. The Vietnam team got the Asia DotA championship title, heh, they totally owned the other team xD. I bought myself what I thought was a keyboard bag. Hell, it turned out to be the ultimate LAN party gear. It can store a laptop, a charger, keyboard, mouse, mouse pad, headphones, hard drive, etc. Pretty much everything you would need for a LAN party. When I asked the shopkeeper about this replacement mouse feet thingy, he even gave it to me for free xD, and it was $10 too xD. At the event there was this part where they had some technical problem preparing some anime song performance, so they asked for a volunteer in the crowd to sing any song. One girl came up, and heck, she got a Razer mouse (worth $85) for free after that -_-|||. "Now don't you regret not coming up?".....

I saw her again during dinner today. I wanted to say hello to her so bad when she passed by me....but as always, I couldn't....damn I feel pathetic......I was trembling....... Then again, as she walked away, my eyes were fixed on her, emoing for no reason at all... sigh

I wanted to finish up my homework tpday but that didn't turn out to be quite feasible....gotta do everything tomorrow.I will not go out tomorrow, I will not go out tomorrow, I will not go out tomorrow, I will not go out tomorrow...

And the booth girls at WCG were hot.....damn those people for making them wear such sexy outfits xD

Connections

We finally got to eat in dining hall again today. Saw her. Saw everyone. I feel sad not being able to sit with my seniors and chat as we eat like we used to. Sigh. So I guess I'm back to the boring meals cycle (put on headphones, eat, go back).

I received another email from yahoo saying 360blog is closing in a few days. Honestly, I don't like the least bit about it. Having to go through the trouble of creating another blog is one thing, but it's nothing major. It's that blogging just isn't what it used to be. People who would normally comment of my blog posts don't know my new blog address. Blogging using facebook note wasn't an option as I put lots of private stuffs on my blog and there are lots of people I don't want reading my entries. Sigh.

I saw her again today during meal time. Her hair's different from before the holiday. I can't say it's better or not, but she's beautiful as always. But the more I look at her, the sadder I feel just thinking about the fact that I'm so far from her. I met the perfect person. In the wrong place, at the wrong time. I don't know when these feelings will go away, but I know they are killing me everyday. And I thought I was used to unrequited love.

Talking about eating, meals before today have been pretty bad too. Every time I passed through the corridors and see my seniors eating together downstairs, the first thought I had was to bring my food down and eat together with them. But then I would realise the table was more than cramped and it was obvious there was no more space for another person. But somehow when I would eat my instant noodles alone after that, I would regret not coming down.

After writing this entry somehow I'm wishing there's nobody reading my blog, and my sorrow would be all for myself. But then, strangely, part of me is praying that someone will find this entry and read it, and perhaps tell me to cheer up. Perhaps while I hide myself from people, I hope someone could care enough to try and find me...

And somehow after seeing her today I've been listening to nothing but emo music.

H1N1

Pretty much EVERYTHING about H1N1 and the whole quarantine thing is screwed-up. But hell, it's super fun too haha. It's been gaming until 4-5am everyday ever since the quarantine. Nobody has given a damn about that thick stack of homework, and will probably not until, like, monday? Spent some time this afternoon searching for the Chinese name of the songs my friend passed me before the hol and finally transferred them to my iPod (listening to one of them right now actually). I feel like a freaking perfectionist, but honestly, I can't stand the thought of having Chinese songs in my iPod that don't have all the infos (name, artist, album, genres, etc. In ORIGINAL CHINESE) filled up. Took me some time to copy all the album artwork because the internet was lagging as usual. Just realised I still have some CEP work (a poster and a ppt slide) overdue. Ah well, I'll do it tomorrow.......is what I've been saying since monday......damn......