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i think i'm killing myself. Not physically, but mentally. Found out i'm just extremely good at finding flaws in myself, but equally at fixing them. Yay. Really feel like emoing now, but it's prep time. Wish i could just scream and burst into tears or something, but i cant somehow. Whatever left of my tears must have dried out long time ago. Now i'm even having difficulties trying to fake the happy smile. No idea why this is happening to me. It just did. Today. Out of the blue. Feeling lonely. Really lonely. I've almost always been alone, but hardly ever felt this lonely before. Depressed. And i still have eoy to mug for. Wish someone would just suddenly cheer me up or something. Or i might really break down.

Hell

Had a severe stomachache last night, probably cos I missed dinner. THE most painful experience ever since I could remember. Those traffic accidents and cuts that got me hospitalized couldn't even compare. Scares me even to think about it.

lots, lots of stuffs

havent been blogging for quite a while because of the lack of a proper pc (just realised i say this in lots of entries). Lots of stuffs to blog about. Hmm..... What should i start with...

My iPod cant access blogspot and write entries somehow, but my phone can. Another reason to like this awesome qwerty phone xD.

Then about the manga drawing workshop. Another thing i'll probably never regret in my whole life. Got to know lots of awesome people and stuffs. First is Misaki-sensei for her overwhelming awesomeness. Second is the other sensei, Kai. Good to know someone in the professional design industry. That's one step further to my goal as a pro designer/animator haha. Then all my new otaku friends yay xD.

i think i'm finally letting go of my crush on Xiao Xiao. She's like THE ideal girl (except for the fact that she's 2 yeras older than me) but oh well....she's leaving after this year and she's too busy now anyway...

I just remembered I got long overdue CEP homework. Crap/

Can't remember what I was going to write about. Will write another entry later xD

Just an odinary blog entry

My concert is tomorrow. Can't really believe it. It feels as if I was just accepted into main ensemble today haha....time flies. My journey to attain a 100% CCA attendance has finally ended. After tomorrow I won't have to go for trainings until JC. Yay. Haha that yay didn't feel happy....I think I'll miss practices a lot. All the endless Canon....messing around, making fun of Exco, joking with people....teaching Leon Vietnamese.....making new friends..... sigh.

Got really addicted to Jap cuisine recently. Results? Correction, Consequenses? Spent *doing mental math* more than $100 on food over a single weekend. I'm screwed.... But I guess mom won't mind if it's food haha, she might be glad even.

kknm (this uber shop that Japan-imported anime goods) just opened new pre-orders, including some only available for a limited time. I MUST get my hands on either the Saber Lily or Back Rock Shooter figurine, and the pre-order will be open until 6th of Sept. And that's....shit.....Sunday..... I NEED A CREDIT CARD AAAAAAA MUST BORROW FROM SOMEONE I DON'T CARE WHO AAAAAA.

Just decided I would stay back in Singapore until 23rd of Nov to attend Anime Fest Asia (yes, EFFING ASIA!!) which not-so-conveniently falls on the 21st and 22nd. Not sure if my mom approves of it yet. And staying back means I'll also miss teachers' day in Vietnam, which is one rare time where I'll be able to meet my ex-classmate. And also I'll extremely bored from 12th-20th Nov.... I guess I'll spend my time drawing to keep myself from spending crazy amounts of money...

That's it for now. Concert tomorrow. Can't sleep.