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i think i'm killing myself. Not physically, but mentally. Found out i'm just extremely good at finding flaws in myself, but equally at fixing them. Yay. Really feel like emoing now, but it's prep time. Wish i could just scream and burst into tears or something, but i cant somehow. Whatever left of my tears must have dried out long time ago. Now i'm even having difficulties trying to fake the happy smile. No idea why this is happening to me. It just did. Today. Out of the blue. Feeling lonely. Really lonely. I've almost always been alone, but hardly ever felt this lonely before. Depressed. And i still have eoy to mug for. Wish someone would just suddenly cheer me up or something. Or i might really break down.