Doubts

I'm really happy for CJ. The upcoming concert is going to be awesome and CJ's getting featured on O.M.G as a challenger.

Which makes me sad still, because once again it reminds me of Project U.P

I promised myself I would never give up, but I'm just having so much doubt about my ability to dance. I've failed dance auditions for three times, with maximum effort put in all the time. And last time when they asked me at the audition why I wanted to try again, I was really at a loss of what to say and made up some cliche stuff. Honestly I have no idea what really made me try again. Probably because I want to be in the crew and just be part of this awesome group of people so badly.

I want to try again next year, but studies will be really busy, and it feels weird going again, no thanks to stupid human pride. Should I take a break next year and try again after A levels? Will I be too old by then? Will my dancing skills have rusted by then?

Sigh

I love CJ but I don't like it at the same time. I love hanging out with them but hate it also because it reminds me of project U.P . My philosophy is better to try something then fail rather than not to try at all. But I'm having doubts for that as well.

Really depressed about all this.

I want to dance.